@#$Ko

All I see is happiness and all I want is happiness,
But all around around me is misery and all I have is misery,
It cuts me deep maybe deeper than my soul or to my heart made of coal,
Waiting for a flame to ignite but I walk on burning the bottom of my soles,
Searching for her to save me even though I already know her,
Lost in the moment of hitchhiking to her heart rethinking all I could've told her,
Listening to strangers on this ride demonstrating through gestures all I could've showed her,
I talk like im gifting her to the past tense but maybe the present isn't,
I'm searching for answers between the lines or bars she said or wrote so my minds a prison,
Hoping that there's still a chance I can escape and fly away at least for a day,
Take the real her instead of the memories of her on a simple date,
I wished my words and actions aligned with dreams for fate,
So she could see what I see even if she didn't feel like I feel,
Never pressure her or the situation because both are already diamonds encrusted in steel,
There's a shell protecting her from the corrupt,
Making me wonder if I'm even good enough,
Though I may like or love her without her open hand I'm just a foolish man,
To think I even have a chance but there's something about her that makes me take a stand,
Not necessarily to fight for her love, heart or friendship,
But to allow her to sail away on the feelings of just maybe to those things on my hearts ship,
I could feel this way about her forever because she's so timeless,
Do I want her yes,
Do I love her I don't know,
Do I like her well you could guess,
Does she have any interest in me is something I can only hope,
I can question myself until the end of time,
Because she stole my heart as a friend or something more and its a complex crime,
Because if she asked I would give her my heart on a platter,
With my last words I simply would let my teeth chatter,
In Morse code so a classic beauty like her laughs over the sorrow but only knows,
Even though she can have anyone in the world I'm the only one who needed to know,
What makes her smile like a shooting star,
What makes her cry so I never go that far,
What makes her world complete,
What makes her simply want to speak,
What makes the color happen for her art,
What is the code to the safe of her heart,
And simply do you believe in me because I believe in you,
Truth be told all I am is emptiness without someone like you,
And you don't have to love or like me and never force yourself to try,
I feel like you can fall so easily, naturally and comfortably in love with I,

Space, Moon and the Ocean

Simple admiration through a video,
Type of personality that sinks into your soul,
Deep down its not intimate yet I want to know,
Things about you so I can figure out your hi and your lows,
Tuning our conversations for the perfect pitch like its only audio,
Never speaking on topics that synchronize to your woes,
Swimming through an abyss of crows,
A dark cloud that overlooks a concrete in the rose,
Not saying your imperfect because you far from it,
Not saying your the darkness more like your the star in it,
Your life is the perfect movie and only you should star in it,
Regardless of what I say though I feel you'll take offense to it,
Not due to you but my mind and heart aren't congruent,
So everything sounds just foolish, colored in a blue gradient,
Fading me when,
I'm expressing simple things or asking you how your day went,
Because I'm trying not to sound eager,
Yet I never learn lessons the first try so I leave it to beaver,
To chop away at the wood,
to carve conversations that seem good,
Like a mirror I want to know your reflection,
Not in a perverse way but so I can study imperfection contrasted with perfection,
The first being I second being you,
I could tell you a million compliments that held truth,
Not saying your fishing for compliments just saying I want to know you,
You caught me off guard like a fish out of water and I just want to show you,
Being in your atmosphere leaves me short of air,
But when you talk to me it leaves me without care,
Well not really completely but close to it,
Just being honest yet I feel this won't work like this situations a recently closed door and I walked into it,