We float on even though,
Clouds adrift, smoke lifts,
Marry the sky release the veil,
Silhouette shifts, sun drifts,
Language barrier so stars serve as braille,
Darkness sifts, worldly gift's,
Honeymoon essensce resemble a constellation so frail,
Moons stiff, Blood thrifts
Forever my love is the resemblance of hell
Recent events that coincided with my life has me thinking about pursuing more goals as well as dreams and actually getting up and chasing them rather than just saying I'm all in or I am doing so to others which would be a horrid lie. Though its something I often do so others will not and rather cannot look down upon me for what I haven't yet achieved as well as have achieved but to them it only seems minor. It all dawned upon me and shook me with a cold fear of death and made me look at life in a perspective where I was already viewing it but I didn't see myself viewing it so I became lost in the nostalgia of it and it was sickening. Just the simple thought and the process of looking at everyone else's progression whether socially, physically or monetary wise. Then becoming physically as well as emotionally sick looking at my own life and age pondering is this all that I'm capable of for forever or right now. If so is this life and is this right? I felt like i've thrown up subconsciously a million and one times from this feeling of being plateaued or this sudden fear of regression. As for being physically sick i've done that as well and its frightening Just thinking will I ever find or attempt to seek out progression. Images of others success are like shots, daggers, bolts, heartbreak and simply anything that could cause infliction or severe damage to my overall well being especially my mind as well my heart. It drives me to do more but it cuts off my limbs while slowly cutting my neck from side to side again and again the more i progress making it harder to even move. This is my life and I want change more than a hundred dollar bill or a person wanting to catch a bus or simply to motivate my own campain like President Obama in 2008 seeking election. I also want to retain this change as well these feeling of change in not only my eyes but the eyes of my peers who stares are only leers like im President Obama in 2012 when he won re election even though everything seemed broken and divided. There is a way whether hardwork, will or luck and let me not forget faith. I want it all so bad that im lost in it and the feelings is liking being in a fresh grave trapped in a casket six feet deep with your peers throwing not flowers only dirt but also fire as well as water mixed with gasoline on top of that casket. You cant escape a feeling like that you have to embrace it and thats exactly what im going to do because i've been sitting on the edge of this plateau for way to long and the funny thing is that im afraid of heights but im going to jump. Hopefully i'll land in the gracious hands of destiny but if not i guess i'll once again return to the hells of my own misery. In a way what all that I just said is merely pathetic and sad. Yet i can't help but feel a bit relieved to share it as well as being able to get it off of my chest and mind. If theres one thing i hope to regain from what follows all of this is becoming not a step closer but rather being at the front door of my dreams. Sent from Catch Notes for Android https://catch.com
Im going to just list off my favorite anime rather than go into vivid details, opinions and comparisons like i did on my other blog but if you want to visit my other blog feel free just type into any search engine like google: thatguyowen blog and scroll through. Google you'll see my blog if not comment on here so I can give you the link. Anyway here goes.
1. Samurai Champloo
2. Kanon (2006)
3. Toradora
4. The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzimiya
5. Full Metal Panic Fumufoo (not sure of i spelled the fumufoo part right but once you google it......it will surely pop up)
Top 5 Honorable mentions:
1. Kimi Ni Todoke
2. Lovely Complex
3. Kaichou wa maid sama
4. Itazura na kiss
5. Full Metal Alchemist
I turned 22 years old recently and theres alot I realized I haven't accomplished as well as alot that I have but at the end the day it seems the things you haven't done always outweigh the stuff you've done. Its funny how the human mind works that way but in reality its another faction in life. Its the human curse to often take on more than you can chew or handle at a time and always let the undone, unsettled or negative weigh you down. Example of this is imagine a day where everyone as well as everythings awesome but you encounter a person who isnt i guarantee you that one person will stick with you or make your day change for the worse but moving on past this dilema. The older i get and the more years that pass i become ten times as wise as the year before but theres always relapse because of our heart. Theres always things pulling us down and most of the time its emotional ties or past grievances. You tie the two together meaning the heart and the mind and theres a battle that will never end until the end of humanity. My advice to anyone looking towards the future is pick the right battles and conquer them with mind or your heart but never both because you cant Make them leaders of you and thats something i`ve tried for the past 21 years. Hopefully that makes sense to you because you cant use your heart in a situation that requires the minds input and vice versa. The best example of this is think of yourself like a king or great conqueror or your favorite conqueror and then imagine your heart as well as your mind are your generals. Your generals battle both defiantly for your will..... yet together they surely stall or fall because of diffrent strategies. At the end of the day its up to us to use the right general to conquer the constant battles of life to stand on top of the world. The world is so big and full of so many people how will you conquer it and will you make the right changes?
I made this post because every time I look at a clock randomly it says 11:11 not because of the supposed apocalypse lol.
Its just every time I look at a clock it says 11:11 and I find it quite weird considering chain of events in my life and in general. For starters I recently met 2 or 3 random people who shared the same exact birthday and month as me and I've never encountered that before until I started seeing the clocks placement on 11:11. You may say what does my birthday or there birthdays have to do with a 11:11 well the birthday were talking about is 2/22 and hopefully you can see why I find that unique and Erie. Also lately I've been feeling strange and in my own little world at times and if you look at the meaning of the number 11 on the web you encounter a lot of supernatural and spiritual world type of things and lately everything seems like a web everything is just connected. I may just be reading too much into this and probably sure I am but the fact these weird events have been happening for more than a month and a half or two months seems like more than a coincidence even though I'm sure it is just a coincidence. I just felt the need to air it out for future purposes and just to see have any of you ever encountered weird or Erie coincidences like this or something random?
Feel free to leave or comments or an answer to this weird situation lol
Skyfall: to me it delivered all across the board with a great overall story, cast and it blended movie genres together so seamlessly yet still remained bond in its nature and genre. It also surpassed its predecessors. Therefore it is my number one movie on this list however it may be subject to change yet I highly highly doubt it.
The Dark Knight Rises: again like skyfall it had a pretty good story overall, cast and it stayed true to Nolans version of Batman. The only reason I cannot place it above skyfall is simply because it didn't surpass its predecessors like Skyfall and some even would argue it is the weakest in the series and it didn't live up to the hype. I however enjoyed it enough to have seen it more than 5 times. What really made this movie be placed in my top 5 was Tom Hardys character Bane: he was a overly relatable villain and as crazy as it sounds I saw myself having a lot in common with him and at times even rooted for him. So the balance between good and neccesary evil is why the dark knight stood out amongst the crowd.
Moonrise Kingdom: You have to have an indie film that stands out and really has nothing going for it but the story itself like other films relying on prequels or sequels or action or something known to a person. The fact that this movie really was on its on against titans this year and still remained succesful and people actually enjoyed it not only movie arts people is exactly why its number 3 on my list and that's arguable considering the movies I'm going to list after were just as good and in some minds better and more enjoyable yet those films are more mainstream.
The Avengers: could've gone number 3 or even number 5 because it was the most CGI affected movie I've seen and it had an entire cast of a list stars. Plus the avengers is so well known if the justice league had a movie I would probably think the same but a little less considering dcs success rate vs marvels and considering marvel is owned by Disney now. So this movie couldn't help but be some what successful considering the success of thor, captain america' and of course iron man and underated actor Robert Downey Jr. Who pretty much made the movie stand out and land on my top 5 list I was tempted to put Sherlock Holmes: Game of shadows here but I forgot it came out last year.
Men in Black 3: even though the story was cheesy at moments at times I enjoyed it more than some of the movies on this list because it had more heart and it reminded me of past times in the movie and in my own life. It definitely deserved a spot on my top 5 list.
Honorable mentions:
Hunger Games
Ted
21 Jump Street
Prometheus
The Amazing Spiderman
Abraham Lincoln Vampire Hunter
That's my boy
I'm pretty sure I'm missing more
Movies I still need to see:
Jiro dreams of sushi
Breaking Dawn part 2
Lawless
Abraham Lincoln (one with Daniel Day Lewis)
Brave
Bourne Legacy (maybe)
Totall Recall
Savages
And some anime movies
And that keira knightly movie
